Friday 27 June 2003

Well, i was more drunk earlier and i had lots to rant about. now i have nothing. im happy if such a thing can exist.

Met Steph today. Long lost friend who moved to Birmingham and now wants to go to uni in Stoke (god help her). Well, it was fun. It started with me leaving my mobile at home so I had no way of finding out who she was. I was waitin on the platform, she was out front. Then almost walked staright past her to go get my mobile from home. If she hadn't shouted i wouldve been another half hour late :-s Well after that embarassment, we had a walk. Went passed my old high school. This was very traumatic for me since I hated hated HATED school. Well, except for the school plays and concerts. Well we got passed. I was shaking. Dinner ladies all still worked there and the old graphics teacher was looking VERY old now.

After this, we went all round other places where I used to hate going. But in a way, having a friend who'd been there with me at the time prevented the pain somewhat. So I overcame a lot of demons today. Well, yesterday now!!! So , It's been fun. Also saw another girl from school called Hannah. Found out she works in town. Im not sure, but I got the impression that either her or a relative own the shop. So success for her.

Well that was the day really. looked through her leavers book and saw how much she was loved. But didnt let myslef feel downgraded by this, which i was quite proud of. We looked through a lot of our photos which was nice. Oh, and in Hannah's shop, she asked what i wanted to buy and I just froze! I wasn't there to buy anythin, just to see Hannah. And i couldnt think of anything! I felt so stupid. So i had a sandwich. I wasnt even hungry. But I panicked over a sodding sandwich! I was so embarassed!

Thats it really. Spent the evening talking to my darling gf Tracy. Got a bit drunk and irate and started ranting to Tracy, but I hope she forgives me. Im fine now. I've sent her some flowers - they're lovely. Hopefully they'll arrive saturday morning before her interview which I wish her all the best of luck for. I know she don't really want it, but she's willin to put up with it just to compromise so that she may have the possibility of visiting me in High Wycombe!

She did drop that bombshell on me tonight. HEr comin to visit isn't deffinate. Yet I've been dreaming of it for days now! Thinkin about how fun it will be. Wondering what it'll be like, whether it'll be as perfect as it'd be really nice to be. But never mind. Even if I dont have that to look forward to, i have movin back to huddersfield to look forward to. cos then im only 20 odd miles away and we can see each other every wkend cos it dont cost that much. And i can budget for it. so that'll be nice.

Anyyway, im nackered now and back is stiff, so im gonna rest in bed. oh, and i wont be back for a while after friday most likely cos i wont have inet access. As far as i know anyway. so we'll have to see. might use library computers if it comes to it, and if they have them. I'll have email via my phone though. so dont forget me, im gonna need u all!

kisses and hugs to the ladies. firm manly handshakes to the gentlemen.

Monday 23 June 2003

well, weekend was fun. I had a nice time. on the whole. Drive was very long. For the first time ever I was petrified of killin myself on the motorway.

Yes, this entry is all about her. So buckle up!

Woke up saturday morning earlier than my alarm (so 5:30am) and started gettin ready to ship out. Set off just after 7am. Got to Burnley by 9:30am, took a further half hour to find where the hell i was! But I finally got to meet Tracy (OMG thats the first time ive used her name here :-s) at 10ish, only half hour earlier than planned!!! Lol.

Tryin to find a hotel to stop in was a nightmare! They were reasonably priced, but the number of roundabouts in Burnley is unbelievable! So, eventually, we stumbled across A hotel. I even managed to find my way back to it that night quite easily. All accidental mind.

Went for our long planned picnic. It was gorgeous - the scenery, the company; but the food was awful.

Then it was bedtime. Alone, in a hotel with damp sheets. The dampness not being my doing it was like that when I got there!!! Intended to sleep till 10ish. Woke up at 5:30am. went back to sleep but kept wakin up every 20 minutes for some reason. Then alarm went off on the tv (WTF? I didnt set it) at 7:30. So now i was wide awake. So i spent from 8ish to 10ish gettin ready. I think i was goin slowly cos it never takes me that long to get ready. me worried - but more about that in a bit.

Spent another lovely day drivin around. Went over to Huddersfield (cos I know Hudds and could show her the nice bits) had a meal, then drove back to her place. Watched a film while semi-cuddled on the sofa - it was Bridgett Jones's Diary. It was so funny. I should've left round about when it started but I decided to stay cos it's a good film, and I was enjoyin the semi-cuddlin!!! But yeah, left late - 10ish. Got home at 1am. I'd covered 490 miles in a weekend! or was it 419? yeah - it was 419 sorry.

Do you think anyone's noticed the huge chunks that have been missed out?
Nah - you covered it up well.
Do you think I should tell them about my worries?
I wouldn't - you never know who'll read this.
But thats not honest is it?
Can you be sure that what you're feeling right now isn't just cos you miss her?
Thats true - so you're sayin I should wait a while before making any decisions?
What decisions are there to make?
I'm not sure how she feels.
Do you need to know?
Not really, I think I don't trust things when they are going so well.
There we go then. Just calm down, relax and be happy that you've found someone who actually cares for you. And likes you for being you. Now when has that ever been the case in the past?
Never.
Are you going to be grateful and stop worrying about nothing?
Yes I am.
Good lad. Now lets pretend this conversation never happened.

Thursday 19 June 2003

Hi! has been a while, but have been rather busy what with one thing and another ;-)

Right, I'll start today and work backwards. Ive spent the afternoon looking at flight schools. It costs £3,000,000 for a plane, but only £100 per flying lesson, ish. This is my latest fad. I went through a stage of wanting a boat too. Which I still want one day. probly a lot sooner than having my own plane!!! But still, you can ask our local airport (tiny thing out in the countryside) for flights to the continent! so, sounds ok. Also spent the afternoon learning about Heinz. They own the biggest kitchen in the world you know. And it's in Wigan.

Yesterday I got very stressed. What with all the helping I did. At 1am I was helping a cousin with his girl troubles, got some sleep and then I was helping my mate a little (not that she needs much help form me - which is nice) and then came tea time. Well, everyone was home. there was the chaos of mom moaning at dad to get his passport forms done and wanting to get the holiday booked right away. At the same time, dad was attempting to make 3 meals at once. Sister was having a strop. So there I was, helping with the food, directing the bed deliverers to the garage, calming mom down and trying to cheer up sister. Then uncle rang and wanted me to go to his house to keep his son company.

Well, this took its toll, but the lovely northener helped it all go aweay and cheered me right up. *thanks*

Ok, day before that - this is Tuesday. Went to bed shop and Dad put a deposit on the bed I liked. Then we went into town and bought me a 2-seater settee and armchair from a charity shop. That was about it.

Monday was me in High Wycombe again. Measuring up my new flat. When u put it in terms of numbers, it's huge. But at least i now know my bed will fit in it! Yey! Got home and my Evanescence album had finally arrived (11 days late!!!). It's beautiful. There's no other word to describe that voice.

So, onto sunday. Not a lot done. played footie again. This time I DID have a nice gentle game. Kept feeling really faint though, and my heart wound pound after just walking a metre or so! it was the heat that did it i think. But it was nice. Laura drove us around. She can DRIVE. yes, DRIVE. the speeds weren't all that legal, but u could tell she had control. Wouldnt be able to react to an accident in time, and I'd probly be seriously injured (i.e. die), but she wasn't gonna make any mistakes of her own doing.

Saturday night went out to play pool. a nice night. again, Laura drove. her parking is just as bad as mine!!! Still, it was a nice night, i barely payed for a thing yet again - which is good and bad - it isn't like i make him pay, he offers, i say are u sure, he says yeah, i offer to pay, and then he goes off and buys me a JD and coke, refusing to just get me a coke! :-s

FRIDAY!!!!!! MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!! Had a lovely day. Got up, opened my 6 birthday cards. Then went out to another town up the road/hill. Bought a cinema ticket then went up (yes, up again) to the bed shop. Found a lovely bed. Shiny silver frame. HAs beech slats that bend to make the bed comfier. And the head rest thingy has leather backrests on it. It's a double bed too. The mattress was lovely too. And quite a pricey decent one too. What a bargain! Then went down to the cinema. I went to see The Matrix Reloaded. I was 25 minutes early and so I got there and there weren't even any adverts on!!! But I got comfy and listened to the music. Then a few ppl finally came in, but by the start time, still no ads. So, I was wondering whether im at the wrong film. But they just went straight into the pre film bumf u usually get once the lights go down. I was in the right screen. I enjoyed the film. The superman thing was done tastefully if u ask me. It was believable. I didnt find it cheesy at all! but i know some did. I liked it though. The screen was pretty empty only 8 or so ppl there, and only me and 2 others waited till the end to see the preview of the 3rd matrix film. But it looks good.

And that brings u up to date. My love life just right now is complicated. Well, awkward, not complex. Theres a very nice girl I know. I'd go as far as to describe her as perfect. For once, someone is giving as much as me. Caring for me, able to cheer me up, and thinks like me and could easily help me sort out any problems. So, im thinking 'whats the problem?' Well, there's always a problem. She lives close to my uni. I'll be at the other end of the country for the next year. So - problem. Long distance things are awful. awful, horrible, cruel, evil, demonistic, destructive and cowardly! But still, she's lovely and I dont want to lose her. So txting will have to do. Btw, my phone bill is nearing £50! thats 300 more txts over the wkend! :-s need to buy txts. its cheaper! lol. Oh, I should say that I care about her too - i havent actually said it, just implied it. Theres something happenin this wkend, quite big and a little worrying for her family. So I'm doing what I can, but she managed to cheer up ppl so well! Sorry if this sounds patronising, but i felt proud that someone comforts better than me. And anyone who knows, knows that im a caring person that'd do anything for someone i care about. But it pleased me.

Sick of rambling now, im gonna go get my hair cut. its a fuzzy mess. all shaved off again i think. to about grade 2, with grade 1 back and sides. Dont know any decent styles. Ive tried lookin in mags and stuff, but theres nowt that takes my fancy. MAinly cos they're too difficult to do and i like the ability to get straight out of bed and thats it.

Soy finado [i think that means 'I'm finished' in Spanish]

Thursday 12 June 2003

Hi

Gave blood today. Didn't feel anywhere near as bad as last time, though it did take an age for the blood to come out of me! I have narrow veins apparently. Next time, they'll give my right arm a go. Was tricky getting home what with the big hill, but I went the long way round. It's less steep but does go up, then down, then back up, and depending on the route goes down again! Still, I got back safe and sound.

Checked my phone bill, I've spent £20 texting my mate this month. thats 200 texts!!! i think i may be addicted.

Ok, so the day has gone well. Got 2 birthday cards from Dads side of the family, none from mom's side yet (not suprised) and one from a friend.

Watched the last ever buffy tonight. It was much better than the last ever x-files unfortunately.

Erm, thats it really. Been invited to a party. Bit of a strange situation, but it should be fun. Thats if we're still talking in August. I hope we are, we get on well. So I hope I'll be around for this party - it's her family doo. This will be strange, but do-able!

There's also this thing bugging me. There's this lovely girl who I get on with, but I don't want it to turn into anything relationship like cos it'd be another long distance thing and to be honest - they're gut wrenchingly horrible. So nothing like that could evolve. NOTHING, u hear? It'd be nice, really nice, possibly perfect, but can't happen. It wouldn't be fair on either of us.

Enough rambling.

Wednesday 11 June 2003

Well, what a lovely day yesterday was. I got my results - I managed to pass everything. Only just, but I did it. I passed my worst subject by 2% - but I passed! Much pride.

Then, carried on north past hudds, to my mates house. Well, to her town. Was only meant to spend 2 hours there, but I spent 4! Had a lovely tour of the town - which is quite nice really. Shops shut early - even McDonalds shut at 8! There was one takeaway, and 3 pubs open by 20:30!!!! *shock* Anyway, back to the lovely birthday girl! We exchanged b'day cards - liked hers more than the one I bought her, but there we go. I dont really know how to explain how nice it was. We chatted - yes, me chatting almost as much as her, which I was impressed with. So, a fantastic day and I thank her very much.

So, to stop repeating myself, i'll move on to today. Ive finished all me forms for now. so now im just waiting for companies to get back to me. So, everything is sorted, wheels are in motion, and I'm having the smoothest week ive had in, erm, forever. I actually walked through town smiling - I have NEVER done that. But I was, i was smiling. thinking about lovely yesterday, successful today, and tomorrow when im doin something - i forget what, i dont know what day of the week it is. if it's wednesday it's task night on BB so I'll laugh at em failing. Tomorrow I give blood! Friday I was gonna meet someone, but that's been called off.

Talkin of things bein called off - schoolmate who i was meeting today, rather ironically, injured herself playing football (like me!) and so couldnt move. so didnt come. but hopefully she will. I was lookin forward to it, but luckily i was in such a good mood already, it didnt hurt too much. Well, im gonna go enjoy this feeling. I feel like a king so far this week - like I can do anything I want. Dont know how it'll hold up when sister is around, but here's to hoping that it will!

Monday 9 June 2003

Right then. In order of most memorable events today (so far) (highest to lowest)....
1) Saw a girl i knew at high school. Haven't seen her in 3 years. She looked stunning. Think her name was Sarah - can't be sure.
2) Saw one of my sisters old mates pushing a pram (she'd be aged 17 now)
3) Sorted a place to live next year. It's very nice and has a washing machine.
4) Drunk asian guy on train was chatting up all the lovely ladies.
5) Body still hurts, but I made it through the journey.

And that's about it. I could go into detail about feeling lonely and single today, but I don't feel like dwelling on it. So tonight I'll probly write at length! lol!
Ow ow ow ow ow
I hurt. Ive buggered my left elbow (cant use arm now), right leg is hurting at the hip and knee, my back is in agony, my ribs ache, my toes sting and finally my head is still screwed from all the drinking i did last night. So I think that's it.

Had a great night Saturday. It was almost as if I hadn't been gone. Ppl asked how uni was going - i told them the truth. They just stared at me as if i was making it up. I wish I was. Then today, after a shaky start, got took out for breakfast at Sainsbury's. Then i went back home for me sunday lunch. Then went out for a 'mild kick around'. This turned into a full blown match. We lost 9-10. I was in goal. I actually did really well. Saved most shots, most of their goals were pure luck! But i did do this classy save - I went to catch the ball, but i got it wrong and it bounced up off my arm, smacked me in the face, then i was lookin round to see where the ball had gone and i managed to catch it as i spun round completely by accident! You probly had to be there!!!

But it was fun.

Big week this week. Gonna try to give blood on the 12th. on the 11th I'm meeting someone special. On the 10th it's results day AND i'm off to see a mate. And tomorrow, the 9th, I'm off down to Bucks to find a home. Need to be there by 10 which involves catching a train at about 7:40am. Which in turn involves getting up at like 6am! I could do with a bath but I'll only seaze up in it, so I'll settle for sponging myself down. And I dont mean that in any dirty way!!!!!!!

Still miss Shaz. Haven't heard from her yet, but I'm gonna assume she got home ok.

Right, I'm off. I need sleep. My body is in agony, but I've gotta manage somehow. Bye bye :-)

Saturday 7 June 2003

u know how I was all upset the other day cos ......
Why am I in such a bad mood all of a sudden? It makes no sense whatsoever! It could be cos my mate is gonna be going somewhere and so I won't be able to speak to her as often.
.....well, today's the day she goes. To be honest I don't know what to say. I'm near tears. She doesn't know/care how much her support and friendship has meant to me. Didn't say a proper goodbye cos I had to go and she wasn't at her computer - but I said I'll miss her and I think I wished her luck. Hopefully I'll get to say goodbye to her before she leaves the country - I asked if I could but I didn't get a yes or a no.

So, amongst all the aching joints that come from sleeping in the living room because your sister and her fella are making too much noise for you to sleep, I feel quite alone and empty and sick.

This is something she said.....
dont like saying goodbye when I know I'm not going to see people ever again. Best cry now I guess to save crying in front of Dad tomorrow.
......I think it's not about me, but still. I'm not gonna see her or be able to email her for over a year at least. She'll be missed loads and loads and loads, and I wish I could keep texting her to tell her this but I don't want her to get annoyed with me. So I'm left in the rather awkward position of having to appear fairly calm while inside vital organs are missing.

I'm gonna go try and find ways to hold back the tears.

Friday 6 June 2003

Good evening! lol. well, you know how i kinda hinted at a nice relaxing day? well it dint work! ok, so i got a nice meal from the chippy, got to lie in front of the tv, but.......
1) Current landlady really did beat around the bush to ask for the eleccy and gas meter readings. But she didn't quite have the heart to say that some of my security deposit will need to be spent - though she all but said it!!! Bless her - I was gonna let her keep it anyway! It was only 5 £20 notes.
2) This one was a bit more of a bolt out the blue. Not entirely sure how to say it with it still making sense, but somebody who I wanted to believe was my best mate (even though he used to scam me) and haven't talked to in a year because of various personal feelings involving not wanting to get hurt, has invited me on a night out to one of our old haunts where, to be honest, we had lots of fun. I wasn't sure whether I should say yes, but i did want to say yes. It took me nearly 2 hours and the opinions of 3 people to decide on a yes.

I really have missed them this past year. Spent nights wondering how they were, but not wanting to text too often for fear of sending the wrong impression. We did used to have fun. Well, me and this person. Though I never liked the people they were friends with, and the influences they had. But this meeting could easily go either way. I'm more inclined to think it will go well, but the 'friends' i mentioned previously could be worse or got better. The latter being less plausable. So, many mixed emotions. But, it's in the town nearest to the majority of my family - so if things go wrong, I'll be fine. So, let's hope for the best.

Ok, enough about that. Found out tonight that sister is back from her hols. So this means more tension, and no evening control of tv. Though thank god she has a job else i'd go mad!!! Talking of sister, I think it's her lager that's in the garage. The same lager that I've been merrily working my way through this week. Also, she's just this second stepped through the door. how about that then?

ttfn
Never did go on friday. HAve decided on Monday. I've made the appointment and everything now. I go down in the morning, look through the places they have on offer for an hour or so. Then (and im still not entirely certain how this is gonna happen) we go to the places I like. Then, I think about it. Not sure how long for, but I'll probly get it over and done with there and then.

So, with a bit of luck, I'll have somewhere to live during my work placement sorted by end of Monday. I stress a bit of luck!!! lol!

As for all yesterdays worries - they seem to have floated away. Don't know when they'll be back, but I'll be ready with my frying pan when they do. Today on the other hand shouldn't be so bad. Tonight I get my first proper meal in a week from the chippy. I ignored the Jehovah's Witnesses when they came. It seemed a bit pointless trying to un-brainwash someone. Today, I'm listening to music. Looking for places where I can download some classical music. I found this really great site once - through pretty much pure chance, but computer crashed and so i never found it again! damn it!

It's 3-43 and all's well.

Thursday 5 June 2003

right. im gonna make an appointment to go down to bucks tomorrow. Gonna go for bike ride to auntie's house too. Don't really remember the way by canal. I know the road way, but there's far too many hills for my under-excersised body to handle. Plus, I seem to remember that the canal I want lies deep into evil territory. That being where lots of people I could really do without seeing live. There is another option of course, but I'm not sure if the two canals I'm thinking of ever meet.

Why can't anything be simple? Why why why why why?

Why am I in such a bad mood all of a sudden? It makes no sense whatsoever! It could be cos my mate is gonna be going somewhere and so I won't be able to speak to her as often. Yeah, I think it's that. Oh well. Nowt I can do about that, except make the most of the moments I get. Erm, I want to say more but I dont think I should. Lets just say that I depend on her way too much.

Stupid buggering idiot! <<<<<<< me

can't be arsed goin through places with bad memories. I'm not in the mood. I'll find something to do. Even if it's on the Sims.

Why do my short posts always end up being so long?

Bye bye.
I forgot to include something I remembered from school. My English teacher, who was right about pretty much everything, said that we'd always remember the start to Wordsworth's Daffodills. After hearing BB Jon recite (in some form) Shakespeare's Romeo and Juliet (which I guesed btw) I remembered Daffodills. ahem

I wandered lonely as a cloud,
That floats on high o'er vales and hills,
When all at once I saw a crowd
A host, of golden Daffodills.


How about that then! Also last night I found a recording of Florence Nightingale..... http://www.bl.uk/sounds/nighti56.ram

Right, off to make dinner. WE got no food, so it looks like cheese sarnies. Still don't know when to go to Bucks. I should go tomorrow really. I'll arrange a time today i think. But after dinner. Cos I didn't have any tea last night :-( Though I did manage to dream of sitting in McDonalds when a couple of girls came and sat by me. We then had a walk round town, and we got on really well. Nice start to a relationship really - pity it'll never happen as easily as that!!!!!

FOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD
Crivens! The bigjobs took me last attempt at an entry. [drastic mis-use of Discworld, please forgive]

So, here follows a summary (in no particular order, well the order i remember but that doesnt really mean nethin now does it)...........
1) Read most of my Wee Free Men book.
2) Went to play snooker with cousin. Had a great time. after dodgy start lost 2-3.
3) Debated Mary Magdelene with Jehovah's Witnesses. They invited themselves round on Friday. Was gonna get a huge argument against blind faith, but got bored by the evening. [this was yesterday]
4) Started talking to another of my friends from school again.
5) Helping cousin to arrange a weekend away.
6) Feeling very useful and wanted.
7) Most friends are finishing exams and will be moving home soon.
8) 20th birthday is about 8 days away. Hopefully goin out on the 21st.
9) Still miss Wales
10) Lots of meet-ups with people coming up. When I say lots there's 2 to 4.
11) Going down south friday maybe to arrange some visits to flats.
12) Results day is looming closer and I've done no revision in case of resits - ah well. [tuppence and up goes the donkey would be good to use, but I've already abused DW so I won't]
13) Pot noodle smelled like cockells u used to get at pubs on a night time. Used to like cockells.
14) Buying White Stripes and Evanessance albums.
15) Must apologise for possibly insulting someone when all I was doing was being playful :-s

right, managed to get that done this time. Probly missin loads of interesting details - but I'm not typing all that out again without some kind of payment. A woman my age who loves me to bits for who I am may be a bit much to ask, so I'll settle for chocolate.

I'll let u in on a secret - when I go to bed at night, I often say goodnight to a few of my friends. So Nighty Night everyone x have sweet dreams and don't let the bed bugs bite!

Tuesday 3 June 2003

Well, after an ok week, last night came as a bit of a suprise. I managed to do a little bit of crying. Not entirely in sadness though. It was rather confusing. I started by imagining something thats happening soon - just thinking what to do etc. Then later, for some reason, I started thinking about a girl I used to like. We had a lot of fun, and it could have been lots lots better but I buggered it up, and I've regretted it ever since. So was a little upset about that.

But I feel a bit better today, still feeling single though. On a lighter note, me book has arrived (Wee Free Men) and I shall be reading it today. Right after the Terry & Gabby show - which is actually quite good for channel 5.

My plans for using the car have been buggered up. I was gonna go visit me mates, but now I've found out that I'm not even gonna be insured on the car. So now, I'm being chaufferred (not such a bad thing!!!) up to uni on results day. Then on to my mates house. Then as for house hunting, I was gonna go down to Bucks next week. I'd have a car to drive around in then. But no, I now have to find my way using public transport. But it'll be ok - I'm sure I can find my way around. But as for meeting my mates down there - that's gonna be tricky. But I do need to see the one cos she's havin a bit of a bad time and needs some cheering up.

Oh well. Don't know whether to go for a bike ride later - or even go down to Bucks tomorrow. Plans are in dis-array and the bin men are outside.

Monday 2 June 2003

what a bloody anti-climax.

Computer let me down completely - realone player decided to have a bit rate of zero, for pretty much the entire launch. So, i saw a lovely black screen! Then thought of bbc news 24. watched that - and even then, it was nowt special. It would've been nice to get a retrospective camera angle, but i spose thats too much to ask.

New series of Spooks starting tonight. lookin forward to that! picks up where it left off, and since watching 24 i'm suspicious of anything i don't actually see, we only assumed that the bomb went off. question is, did it? hope it didn't. but it probably did!

bored now.
It's another day.

In fact, 2 days later.

Everything has been moved out of Huddersfield. Room is packed with stuff (no pun intended). So is the loft. All my stuff. Went for a lovely meal Saturday in my favourite pub. It's in a village just out of Stourbridge. Lovely food. There's this waitress. I think she's the daughter of the family that own the pub. She's been working there for years. Still, I have no idea how old she is. I've been wondering for a very long time. Had a bit of a crush on her at one time, and got it into my head that she had one on me too. So weird. Nice lass though. Always a pleasure to see her.

Sunday went well too. Was quite civilised. Said a decent goodbye. Altogether a success though. Had a nice Sunday lunch in one of our locals up there. We have 4 pubs we go to, all dotted around Huddersfield. All lovely places that do lovely food. Some have more attractive staff than others, but that's just normal.

Monday, today, is ok. There's a few people I want to help but can't. Mainly cos I have no idea how to. Ah well. Was expecting my Discworld book to arrive today, but looks like it isn't going to after all. I'll hope for tomorrow. Dad asked me to tidy up the kitchen, so, unlike me, I actually did. I also hoovered the house - but that was only cos sisters hair was all over the floor. And i couldn't stands no more!

Lentil soup for lunch was lovely.

So, rest of day has been spent waiting for 18:45 tonight. Listening to radio 1.

Why 18:45? cos that's when Beagle2 and Mars Express take off from Baikonur, Kazakhstan. For once, the ESA are televising this launch, and even though it's on a russian Soyuz launcher - it aint american!!!!!! So me happy. It's a big day for the ESA, and indeed Aberystwyth Uni who designed Beagle2 so I'm lead to believe. So i'll be watching live. I thought i'd have lots of trouble getting the RealOne Player to work. Cos it's been playin up for ages - but it all seems fine now. so i'll leave it loaded and ready to watch the coverage that starts 30 mins before the launch. Can u believe that there was ONE shared file stopping windows from loading, running and shutting down properly? Replaced it, and somehow any resulting problems have ironed themselves out! So I'm quite impressed with this good old home computer right now - even if the cd drive is failing, along with the floppy drive. Dad's thinking of just buying a new motherboard CD drive and floppy drive and reusing everythin else. Which will probly save a load of money, just not entirely sure i could do it!